The other day I found myself just sitting and the tears falling. I was just thinking I could not take it anymore, the overwhelming thought that I am going in all these different directions and not doing anything well. Was I depressed? No, just realizing that my priorities have been disjointed. While I have strived to make God number 1, He has been - but not with my full attention. I wanted God to help but I was not being all in. I need to just, as the song says, Breathe. I feel the first thing I need in the day is my coffee but I really need my time with GOD. What if we all just started our day with God…… What if we took time to be with HIM and just be?????? Leave the chaos of life behind for a bit. Focus on God’s will for us. Let His strength fill us. Let Him take the Chaos on for a bit. Let Him take the cancer, diabetes, schedules, bad grades, work, and finances. We so often just say "I got this, I can add one more thing to the calendar" but then walk past the Bible and don’t open it, or say I will pray for someone and then go to the next thing and forget. We are human and I am by far the most guilty of all of putting off things or just getting so busy and overwhelmed with life that I feel "what more can I take Lord?" when something goes wrong. But then it is in those times that He is bringing me back to HIM to realize I am not to take it on my own. It was never intended to be ME. It was US. If we are Christians, we have the Ultimate coach trainer in our corner.
Back to the wishing our lives away comment earlier….. Yes we are all looking forward to the weekend when it is the week day, but what about the lost souls? If we are so focused on wishing time away we will not have the time to fulfill Matthew 9:37-38 “harvest is plentiful but the laborers are few…..” If we all took a few minutes and just reached out to the person we passed and acknowledged them gave them a nod or a kind word… That might be the difference, the seed planted to lead them down the path to God. But if we are so focused on our CHAOTIC life, our heads are in our phones and running thru the things we have left to do. We may miss the opportunity to be a blessing or even better let someone be a blessing to us from God. Trust me in writing this it still hit me hard. I need to just stop and just be with God for a few minutes every day. So listen again to the song by Jonny Diaz “Breathe”, and be still with GOD and give Him some time and let Him help you. I am trying; even as I write this God is speaking to me to continue to rest in HIM and be………….. Is it an answer to all right away? No, but it will help with the burdens and schedules we carry be a little more manageable day to day if GOD is NUMERO UNO.